Seminggu ini like hell.
Dokter di Global Doctor itu bilang kalo gue kena peptic ulcer syndrome..(ugh..apa pula itu..? kayak judul novel suspense-thriller)...dan Dr. Maya di kantor bilang penyebab utama sakit gue itu adalah stress....ugh...gua nggak nyangka kalo " fall in love to a best friend" bisa bikin gue sedemikian stressnya.....gosh..!! ( i've never had a plan on this....!!!!)
mungkin bener ya,
dan pressure itu dua kali lipat manakala gua lihat sekeliling gua di kantor, dan gua ada di dalamnya, gue menjadi bagian semua itu tapi sekaligus tidak berada dimanapun....
Sangat tidak menyenangkan berada di-state seperti ini.
Dan gue memilih untuk tidak perduli pada "arisan kebingungan" yang sedang berlangsung di Aceh, dimana kantor gue ikut menjadi bagian itu semua.

Then, gue ngungsi ke Bandung, maksain naik kereta. Gue sedih terus di Jakarta, nggak ada yang ngurusin, dan gua merasa nggak akan jadi lebih baik kalo gua sedih terus sendirian di kost-an. Nggak ada tempat yang lain saat ini yang terasa lebih nyaman selain rumah, ada kakak ipar yang teramat baik dan sabar, yang setiap hari membuatkan bubur....and my 3-years old nephew yang setiap jam berkunjung ke kamarku....bertanya ini itu tentang semua barang yang ada, "O-ong, ini apa, Ong..?, itu apa?....'Nang mau..boleh?.."

Dan gue belajar melupakan mimpi gue....belajar melupakan ketololan yang pernah gua lakukan hari itu di depannya...gue harus terima resiko itu sekarang...
that's the price that we've talked about.
I took the chance, coz I know its worth.

-#-

Pada Suatu Pagi Hari

Maka pada suatu pagi hari ia ingin sekali menangis sambil berjalan tunduk sepanjang lorong itu. Ia ingin pagi itu hujan turun rintik-rintik dan lorong sepi agar ia bisa berjalan sendiri saja sambil menangis dan tak ada orang bertanya kenapa.

Ia tidak ingin menjerit-jerit berteriak-teriak mengamuk memecahkan cermin membakar tempat tidur. Ia hanya ingin menangis lirih saja sambil berjalan sendiri dalam hujan rintik-rintik di lorong sepi pada suatu pagi.

- Sapardi Djoko Damono

The girl :
" think I'm in love with you, dearest friend,
I have to tell you this, I'm glad that eventually I realized how much you mean to me...."

The Boy :
"Are you sure?.....you put me in a hard position, dear...don't you think about that ?,
You know I care about you, I love you so much....but.., I'm soo sorry, dear...
gosh, don't you realize that we already achieved the highest level of friendship?..I don't wanna loose that...."

The Girl :
Gubraaakk.....!!!,
(aduuh ternyata sakit yak..?...)

" That's ok. I dare to take this chance and take all the risks coz I know you are worthed,
I just want you to know that...."

The Boy :
" I'm flattered....oh, I'm sorry....
but, we'll try to be fine with our friendship ya..? promise?"

The Girl :
(speechless.....)

THE END

(plok...plok...plok.....plok...
dan layar turun perlahan......)

FYI.
Gua, jadinya ikutan kurang kerjaan sama yang bikin ini peraturan......
Bah..!!!!

February 05, 2005 from The Jakarta Post
http://www.thejakartapost.com/detailnational.asp?fileid=20050205.C01&irec=0

Revised code criminalizes public kissing
Hera Diani, The Jakarta Post/Jakarta

Watch out all you lovebirds out there -- there is now a chance that lip-locking in public could send you to jail for 10 years and cost you as much as Rp 300 million (US$32,800) in fines.
These new penalties for conspicious, unrestrained lust -- or just perhaps a peck on the lips -- are part of the new Criminal Code (KUHP) draft by a team led by legal expert and former justice minister Muladi.
The same penalties apply for "an adult showing certain sensual body parts."
Since the 1960s, there have been calls to revise the Criminal Code inherited from the one drawn up by the Dutch in 1886, which its critics say has many flaws and is outdated.
In early 1980s, the government began working on the new code, and only last month, 20 years later, the work was finally completed.
The revised code includes new regulations on environmental degradation, terrorism and human rights and has 727 articles, compared with the existing code's 569.
Some critics say the draft is repressive in parts and interferes too much in people's private lives, while others say some articles would limit freedom of expression or contravene human rights laws.
The most-criticized articles include those on public morality, especially the proposed sanctions for possessing pornography, kissing in public, adultery and de facto couples.
If the code is passed extant, unmarried couples could be penalized with to two years' jail and a maximum fine of Rp 30 million; the article would also give police and officials the power to raid houses of all those they suspected of living together.
Law expert and women's rights activist Nursyahbani Katjasungkana said the morality articles were excessive and infringed on the "rights of the body."
"To protect children from pornography, we should regulate its distribution, not make it into a crime. And as far as kissing (in public) or living together goes, these new laws go way too far," Nursyahbani said.
"What about those couples who cannot register their marriages becau