Mungkin kelak aku hanya akan mengingatnya sebagai lelaki yang hidup dengan segumpal debu di dalam hatinya. Once upon a time in my life, I thought he was a true love of mine, though. I gave myself a chance to be with him, but he never really gave himself a chance to be with me.
Debu itu telah mengerak dan memaku hatinya pada masa yang makin jauh tertinggal di belakang waktu. Selalu ada yang menahan langkahnya setiap kali aku mengajaknya untuk beranjak. Langkah itu selalu berat seakan menyeret beban.
Debu yang mengeras itu, terkumpul dari sisa-sisa amarah, dendam dan rasa sakit selama ribuan hari setelah dia dipaksa untuk berpisah dengan perempuan yang dipilihnya sebagai teman jiwa. once he said that “nggak ada yang bisa misahin kami karena kami sudah menikah secara batin..”.
Dia, seorang lelaki yang dengan setia menyimpan debu yang mengeras di dalam hatinya. Demikianlah barangkali aku akan menempatkannya dalam kenanganku kelak. Karena sejak hari ini aku memutuskan untuk meninggalkannya, dan melanjutkan langkahku, karena hari ini cinta yang lain telah menyapaku. Cinta yang lain itu telah ada sekian lama, aku hanya terlambat menyadarinya....

Btw, I need cofee + cigarettes + someone to talk to + and maybe tissues, in case..... Gosh, this is so unbearable....
-p-

okay.... i can provide you those stuff.
i will get my ass off the office in an hour. i'll catch you up around 7? where will you be? aku sedang di deutsche bank. blok m? or sarinah? or plaza indonesia?

d.

Morning Dinda,
Somethin came up yesterday so I had to get out early from the office, before i read your mail.
thanx for being soo responsive....I do need those stuff, still.
Would you be available to provide, today, later in the evening?
Thanx again.

p.

Whatever the New Year has in Store
By: Helen Steiner Rice

Whatever the New Year has in store,
Remember there's always a good reason for
Everything that comes into our life.
For even in times of struggle and strife,
If we but lift our eyes above
We see "our cross" as a "gift of love."

For things that cause the heart to ache
Until we feel that it must break,
Become the strength by which we climb
To higher heights that are sublime.

So welcome every stumbling block
And every thorn and jagged rock;
For each one is a stepping-stone
To a fuller life than we've ever known;
And in the radiance of God's smiles
We learn to soar above life's trials.

So let us accept what the New Year brings,
Seeing the hand of God in all things,
And as we grow in strength and grace
The clearer we can see God's face.


Jan,1st 2005.
Ya, Whatever.....
Happy new year, to all my friends:
Thank's for coming into my life, and adding your colour into my rainbows.
Love ya all....

-gue, yang lagi gundah karena Aceh...-